Friday 31 December 2010

I Will Always Love You...

Death is one of the many mysteries of life I have been unable to understand till date...It comes unexpectedly, like a sudden slap in your face, and when it does, it manages to leave a permanent mark on your heart...a mark that will not be erased by the passage of time...a mark that will remind you each day of your life what you have lost...

This year the world lost one of its most precious possessions...and I lost one of my dearest friends...

She was one of the most beautiful people I have ever met in my entire life, and I believe one of the most beautiful people I ever will meet...
It wasn't merely her physical appearance, her contagious smile, or her deep brown eyes that made her so beautiful...it was her heart, and the love she showed to each and every creature on earth, be it her fellow human beings, plants, animals, or even the tiniest insects most people would be disgusted at, that made her so astonishingly beautiful...She loved them all equally...

When I met her for the first time, I was immediately struck by the amount of joy and positivity surrounding her...she was always smiling, always laughing, seeming so carefree, just so full of life...It didn't take me long to grow fond of her and soon become extremely attached to her...
Her tremendous knowledge amazed me, and it sometimes made me wonder whether I was really just wasting my life away...I learnt a lot from her...not just in terms of knowledge, but more importantly about life...

Her caring nature towards every living creature was truly amazing...I remember the first day we met, I was freaked out about a grasshopper and spider occupying the bathroom, and hence did not want to use it...She immediately calmed me down, telling me it's nothing to worry about and that they, like us, were just small creatures on earth, probably more afraid of me than I was of them...She said she would "get rid" of them, which in my terminology so far had meant, "kill " them...However, what I saw then was something I will never forget my entire life...She caught both the spider and grasshopper in her bare hands, walked through the room, out to the front door, and placed them in a nearby bush...All I could do then was stand by and watch...                  
I didn't know it then, but as I was watching, she probably taught me one of the most important lessons of life: "Love and treat all creatures equally". I now think twice, even thrice, before attempting to kill an insect, and most of the times follow her example of simply getting "rid" of them in her way...I never would have thought about it then, but she did to a certain extent help me get over my phobia of insects, especially spiders, just by that one simple, caring act...

She was a girl loved by many, but also at times envied by many...I believe this was due to her ability to stand up for her beliefs, no matter what other people said. She would always defend her opinion when she was in the right...At the same time she would, however, let other people voice their opinions, hear them out, and act accordingly...This is one of the most amazing qualities she possessed..her ability to listen and not to judge you based on other's beliefs...Throughout our friendship, I never once feared that she would judge me without hearing me out first...She would always be there to listen to my side of the story, and most of the times, we thought alike...She taught me how to stand up for myself, and for the right...and to believe in myself even when no one else did...something I will forever be grateful to her for...

She was a truly gifted girl, her talents varied from music to art and literature...she excelled them all..I could look at her drawings for hours a day, and just admire the idea and creativity stemming from them...ideas I would have never thought of before...It was like she could see things that others found impossible to see at first glance...Her imagination was incredible, and at the same time inspiring and worth thinking about...
Reading was one of her big passions...she read and read, endlessly, for hours at once...and she just wouldn't stop..I was amazed seeing her read through so many books in such limited time, even when we had loads of other work...but she'd always find the time and peace to follow what she loved...                                           In today's world, where time passes by so quick, like clouds skimming through a clear blue sky, I feel she did the right thing by taking time out for the things she loved...This is something many of us fail to do...We do not realise that our time on earth is limited, and that tomorrow is promised to no one...Before we realise it, our time might be over, and we'll be left with so many things undone, so many words unspoken, and so many dreams unfulfilled...

I know now as I always knew then that she could have achieved anything she set her mind and heart to...cause she had it all...the talent, the courage, the ability, and most importantly a beautiful heart to guide her through it all...She would never give up, even when placed in the most adverse condition I could still see her showing so much positivity, so much courage, it was just unbelievable for me at times...She'd always be there to lift you up when you were feeling down, and make sure to tell you that everything was going to be alright, no matter how hard to believe it was at that particular time...And most of the times, this is what got me through a lot of my gloomy days...

I will always remember her for being one of the most amazing people with one of the most amazing and truthful hearts...In today's world, where everyone is not what you think they are, disguising their true faces through lies and stories, I consider myself lucky to have found a person like her...with a heart so true, so pure, and so beautiful...I believe she truly was an angel, sent to us to teach us some of the most valuable lessons about life, yet taken back way too soon...

The last time I met her, she gifted me a red bracelet, a bracelet she herself had too...and she said to me "This one's for you. I have the same one. I want you to have it and every time you look at it, I want you to remember me. It's so you never forget me...!" I still remember the smile on her face when she said those very lines...Although I didn't need a bracelet to remind me of her, never did I know then how meaningful those lines would become, how much they would affect me now, and how much that small red bracelet would mean to me for the rest of my life...

Today, I wish I had been given the chance to stand by her and tell her that everything was going to be alright when she was going through some of the most painful days of her life... I wish I could have been there for her, like she had always been there for me...I wish I had just been given the chance to see her beautiful smile, I wish I had been given the chance to tell her how much I loved her and how much she meant to me...I wish I had been given the chance to bid her good bye before she left....but life had other plans, and I never did get those chances...

I love you so much T and I always will...now and forever...
I know you're still out there, somewhere, watching over all of us...smiling, and lighting up heaven with your beautiful smile...

I miss you each and every second of my life and if I had just one wish I'd bring you back again...

Love you forever,

A
xx

Sunday 26 December 2010

Fading Away

The strength to survive is one of the most gifted qualities possessed by us human beings...and although it is naturally present in each individual human being, only some of us are able to find it and utilize its true power...

In today's world, if you can find the strength to withstand the most adverse conditions, or the strength to overcome the pain of separation or the loss of a loved one, the strength to walk away from the things that bother you the most, the strength to stand up for your rights, the strength to voice your own opinion, the strength to leave people you love behind, knowing they're no good for you, the strength to believe in yourself when everyone else has lost hope in you, the strength to keep on fighting, and most important of all the strength to remain strong even after having been made so weak over the passage of time....only then, can you consider yourself rich and truly successful.

Having found this strength, you possess something many human beings struggle their entire life to find...

You possess the key towards leading the life you are entitled to...

Cause from strength arises more than just success...

Strength gives you the ability to love, to hope, to believe, to move on, and most importantly, to survive...

The search for this strength is one of the most difficult ones you may encounter in your life...

It is uncertain whether you find it or not...

Some may give up...

Some may continue till they find it...

Yet others might never find it at all...

I watch my strength slowly fading away...like a cloud passing by on a cool summer day...gone in a flash...

Knowing I am unable to do anything to keep it...

It fades a little more with every passing day....every passing hour....and every passing second...

Yet I hope that it won't be too late to rescue at least a tiny part of what had once been mine....

I still believe in strength, though it might be almost gone... 

And I hope that that belief will help me bring back what I, just like every other human being, is entitled to possess and use to its fullest....

A
xx




Friday 3 December 2010

Sometimes A Song Can Say It All...



The dawn is breaking,

A light shining through.


You're barely waking,

And I'm tangled up in you, yeah...



I'm open, you're closed,

Where I follow, you'll go...

I worry I won't see your face,
Light up again...







Even the best fall down sometime,

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow find you and I collide...


I'm quiet you know,

You make a first impression...

I've found I'm scared to know,
I'm always on your mind...



Even the best fall down sometimes,

Even the stars refuse to shine...
Out of the back you fall in time,
I somehow find you and I collide...



Don't stop here...



I lost my place...



I'm close behind...


Even the best fall down sometimes,

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme...
Out of the doubt that fills your mind,
You finally find you and I collide...




You finally find you and I collide...

You finally find you and I collide...                                 




A
xx